vrijdag 21 juni 2019

Disappearances: every day routine

Yesterday evening, sitting in my bed with my tablet on my knees, e-sigaret in front of me, on the comforter; closing the tablet, putting it next to me on the other bed, reaching out for my e-cigaret: gone; with my hand I feel the small gap between the two beds : could have slipped into it: nope: get out of my bed, shake the comforter, look underneath it,underneath the bed on the floor: nothing, turn to my pillow, turn it around , look underneath: niente; put it back in place, tired and irritated, and decide to go to the entrance hall, where I put e-cigaret nr. 2.
Standing at the side of my bed, move my eyes towards the pillow, which I just turned around a few seconds before and there it is :on top,  in the middle of the pillow..... So , conclusion, in less than 5 minutes this solid object vanished and appeared again,  on a pillow I just before held in my hands! Every single day I'm being screwed this way...most of all with make-up products...which often don't even appear again.

So today I had an appointment with the dentist: a woman who I appreciate very much,she always is willing to explain a lot and look for the best, most effective solutions etc..I went for a minor treatment, and she gave me a local anesthesia by injection.When the treatment was finished, I sat at the desk,we were talking a bit and she said:You're really trembling and shaking quite a bit,do you feel heart palpations as well? I did feel 'tension' , and saw how my hands were trembling."It's an oversensitivity reaction to the adrenaline in the injection", in the future you must ask for the type of local anesthesia which is applied for patients with a heart condition, without the adrenaline."
I was happy she said that,because often as a joke I had claimed before to my husband and family that I am allergic to adrenaline: or stress, and apart from the fact that I can't stand for example shouting or certain sounds for a longer time, as well as excessive light and heat,  I can get shaky or very very tired soon, in case of too much adrenaline production, induced by external impulses., so now I had this confirmation.