OVER AND OVER: REPORTING SOME REALITIES.
ONE WAY OF 'STRESS MANAGEMENT' DUE TO EXTERNAL STRESSORS IS WRITING DOWN AND SHARING, PUBLICALLY.
SAME STORY; DISRUPTING DISAPPEARANCES, THE ROBBERY OF SEEMINGLY INSIGNIFICANT OBJECTS: ON THE MOMENTS I NEED THEM MOST; NO ONE VISIBLY INVOLVED; IN SHADY WAYS; 'TELEPORTED' ,WHATEVER.
THIS MORNING SAME STORY: OVERTIME, IN A YEAR OR SO, AT LEAST ABOUT 10 MUST HAVE DISAPPEARED: COMBS: THOSE THINGS YOU NEED TO COMB OR 'MOLD' YOUR HAIR'
I LEARNED OVERTIME, OUT OF EXPERIENCE, TO HAVE AT LEAST TWO WITHIN REACH , IN MY BEDROOM, SOME OTHERS , SAME MODEL THAT I KEEP IN OTHER PLACES, MORE OR LESS 'SPREAD'.
OKAY, SO WHEN THEY ALL SEEM TO HAVE DISAPPEARED, OR 'MOVED' TO ANOTHER PLACE POSSIBLY, THE MOMENT I NEED THEM, WELL, YOU JUST GO OUT, TO AN APPOINTMENT OR DOING THE NECESSARY SHOPPING, LOOKING LIKE CATWEAZLE, IF NECESSARY EVERY DAY, WHAT'S THE BIG DEAL? OR YOU PUT ON A HAT , YOU COVER YOUR HAIR, IF NEEDED EVERY DAY... IN MY EXPERIENCE THERE ARE SOME PERSONS IN MY 'CIRCLE' WHO DO REACT THAT WAY....
I HAPPEN TO HAVE STILL SÓME SELFESTEEM THOUGH, AND I DON'T THINK THAT'S A 'SIN'. GIVING IN TO THE BULLYING FROM SHADY INDIVIDUALS OR 'ENTITIES' IS JUST NOT MY 'STYLE', SO I JUST GO ON WITH WHAT I WANTED TO DO, PHLEGMATIC, ONLY THERE'S NO GOING ON', WHEN SOME TOOLS YOU NEED , AREN'T THERE ANYMORE.
SAME WITH A 'LIPCOLOR': I HAD TWO SHADES, NUDES TO BE PRECISE; WHICH I USE IF AND WHEN I GO OUT. THE MOMENT I WANT TO USE ONE OF THEM : DISAPPEARED ( AFTER HAVING SEARCHED IN DIFFERENT PLACES, THOUGH I MOSTLY REMEMBER WHERE I PUT THEM, EVEN IN SOME 'CHAOS'.
(BTW AS A CHILD I WAS QUITE GOOD AT THE GAME 'MEMORY').
( THESE ARE JUST A FEW OBJECTS, AMONG MANY OTHERS, AS I'VE REPORTED MANY TIMES BEFORE)
RESULT : I WAS LATE TODAY AT AN APPOINTMENT, AND THIS IS ANNOYING FOR EVERYBODY. THE PERSON I WAS SEEING TODAY NOTICED MY BAD MOOD, AND ASKED WHY. HE'S A PERSON WHO KNOWS VERY WELL WHAT'S GOING ON FOR MANY YEARS IN MY LIFE: AND HE ALWAYS REACTS LIKE: OH HONEY , WHAT A PITY THAT YÓU LÉT YOURSELF BE AFFECTED BY THIS.... : A TYPICAL WAY OF VICTIM BLAMING AND THIS IS ONLY ONE EXAMPLE HOW THE PERSON(S), CLOSEST TO ME REACT...WORLD UPSIDE DOWN.( EXCEPT FOR MY HUSBAND, HE KNOWS WELL WHAT'S HAPPENING, ALAS FOR HIM)
I JUST RESPONDED: HOW WOULD YOU REACT WHEN E.G. YOUR WALLET WOULD DISAPPEAR, AND YOU HAVEN'T LEFT YOUR HOUSE AND NO ONE TOOK IT?
WOULD YÓU LET IT AFFECT YOU? OFCOURSE NOT, RIGHT?
THE 'NEW NORMAL' FOR SOME, IT SEEMS, DON'T LET IT AFFECT YOU, : IT'S IRRELEVANT, (THAT IS; AS LONG AS IT DOESN'T HAPPEN REPEATEDLY TO THE PERSON PREACHING IT)
SOMETIMES THIS PERSON SAID : HONEY, WISH I COULD HELP YOU, BUT I CAN'T.
SO TODAY, I'D HAD IT AND HE PROVOKED ME BY HIS (COMMON) BLUNT REACTIONS, I JUST SAID: OFCOURSE YOU CAN HELP ME: I WILL BUY ABOUT 6 NEW COMBS, SO IF YOU'LL PAY FOR THEM, YOU'D REALLY HELP ME.
AND SO HE DID.
( LIKE SO MANY TIMES I'VE HAD TO BUY THE 'ROBBED' OBJECTS AGAIN, AND I'VE GROWN ACCUSTOMED TO BUY A COUPLE OF THE SAME, TO BE 'PREPARED')
(I MUST CONCLUDE THAT I'M CERTAINLY NÓT A NEUROTYPICAL ; IF I WOULD HAVE REACTED 'NORMALLY': AS A RESULT OF WHAT'S HAPPENING FOR OVER SEVEN YEARS : A 'NORMAL'; HUMANE HUMAN, WOULD HAVE JUMPED OF THE BALCONNY, OR WOULD HAVE ENDED BEING SUBJECTED TO REPEATEDLY BULLYING IN INTRANSPARENT WAYS LONG TIME AGO; THERE'S NO WAY YOU CAN GO TO ANYONE TO HELP YOU, NOT THE POLICE, JUSTICE, ETC. NO ONE, LITTERALLY. WITH OTHER WORDS ; NOT ENDING BY PULLING OUT THE PLUG IS NOT BEING 'STRONG', OH NO, IN FACT IT'S QUITE MASOCHISTIC ; IT'S JUST THE FACT THAT I DONT' WANT TO GIVE IN, OR GIVE SOME SHADY INDIVIDUAL(S) THE SATISFACTION THEY/HE SEEM(S) TO BE AFTER. BESIDES THAT I JUST DON'T HAVE THE GUTS, ANYWAY, AND AM (STILL) TOO WORRIED WHAT WILL HAPPEN TO SOME I CARE FOR.)
SO WHAT'S THE CAUSE FOR THIS BULLYING: I'VE RECEIVED ENOUGH ILLMINDED 'THREATS' OVERTIME, TELEPATHICALLY; I WILL DESTROY YOUR LIFE, YOU KNOW I CAN, I WILL KILL YOU, YOU MUST DIE ETC....: HYPOTHETICALLY: SHARING SOME TRUTHS, PUBLICALLY, PUTTING SOME PIECES OF A COMPLEX PUZZLE TOGETHER, NOT FALLING FOR SÓME ( QUITE OBVIOUS) UNETHICAL 'PROGRAMMING', CRIMINAL BEHAVIOR, PSYOPS, ETC. FOR A LONG TIME GOING ON? SOME PERSONAL ( AND GENERAL) PERCEPTION ON ( FAR TOO) POWERFUL, BRAINWASHING CULTS? SHARING SOME OF THAT, LIKE MANY OTHERS? THE BULLYING OF A LITTERALLY AND FIGURATIVELY TINY, INSIGNIFICANT 'WHISTLEBLOWER' ?
THE CONSEQUENCES SOME ( SIGNIFICANT) WHISTLEBLOWERS HAVE SUFFERED ARE WELLKNOWN, I GUESS, COMPLETELY UNRIGHTFUL.
I WON'T STOP DOING THIS, OR I WOULD HAVE TO BE STOPPED .. SOME TRUTHS AND (PERSONAL) EXPERIENCES SHOULD BE SHARED, AND I'M VERY HAPPY, THERE ARE SOME RELIABLE PERSONS, WITH NO SECONDARY INTERESTS, WHO DO SO TOO.
IT'S COMPLETE 'HILARIOUS', ISN'T IT: (THE SCISSORS DISAPPEAR AS WELL, BTW)
